Unbearable Agony: My Struggle With the Mysterious Suffering of Cluster Headache Syndrome
It began on a gloomy Monday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a teacher, attempting to manage a new group of students, when a intense sensation erupted behind my right eye. It was followed by rapid shocks, like lightning bolts. As the school day came and went, the discomfort eased and then returned with greater intensity. Multiple times that day I handed over a colleague with activities and ran to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cold water. I tried ibuprofen, but the agony remained unbearable.
The attacks appeared frequently that fall, and once more in spring, soon forming an annual pattern. The autumn months were the most severe, then the late winter. I could predict the pattern: a warning sensation in the shower, early twinges on the train, full-blown pain in the classroom by mid-morning. In 2019, a doctor eventually sent me to a neurologist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headache disorder.
This condition typically start with severe pain behind one eye that persists for three hours.
About 1 in 1000 people are affected by the condition, and men are more often affected. Cluster headaches usually start with abrupt, severe pain focused on a single eye that reaches its peak within minutes and lasts for as long as three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, daily or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, sagging eyelids or facial perspiration. I have the episodic form, which arrives in periodic bouts; some patients have continuous attacks, defined by the lack of long pain-free periods.
What unites patients is the severity. One study rated the sensation at 9.7 10, more severe than bone fractures or other conditions. A separate discovered a significant percentage of cluster headache patients experienced suicidal thoughts amid bouts; the figure fell to four percent when they were not in pain.
Val Hobbs, 74, a long-term sufferer from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her episodes started when she was two. “I would throw myself on the floor and hit my head. That was put down to being spoiled,” she says. Her symptoms worsened through childhood. Alcohol in her adolescence, similar to many causes, made things worse. After drinking sherry at her school leaving party, she remembers hardly being able to see on the transport home.
Her family often interpreted her episodes as intoxicated behavior. Support eventually came from her father and then from her husband, Rod. “I was very lucky to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after relocating, but often hid her illness. She was fired from one job, in part due to time off during episodes. Her definitive diagnosis came in 2002 at a specialist neurology center.
Still, the inability to organize daily activities around erratic attacks took its toll. She particularly hated being unable to plan social events, being seen as unreliable as a co-worker, and even having to be looked after by her family during the incapacitation caused by the worst episodes. “It steals from you of the small freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She recalls obtaining tickets for a significant concert, only to have an episode inside a portable toilet.
Headaches have been documented throughout history. “The first account of headache originates from the ancient civilizations in antiquity,” write authors in a book on the topic. They linked the ailment to an evil spirit who attacked his sufferers' heads.
Ancient medical texts propose bizarre treatments for what some experts would classify as a headache disorder. In the medieval times, migraine was identified as a distinct condition, with therapies ranging from bloodletting to other, more superstitious remedies.
It was a European physician who provided the initial comprehensive account of a cluster-type attack. In his writings, he describes a patient “suffering with a very severe headache happening and disappearing each day at specific hours”.
The disorder were only formally classified by global medical societies in 1988. From the 1960s to the late 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a issue with a major blood vessel which delivers blood to the head. Prominent experts in diagnosing the condition note this.
In the late 1990s, researchers published the findings of a study for which they had triggered cluster headaches in patients and observed the attacks in a imaging machine. The results, published in a major medical publication, showed increased activity of the hypothalamus, which is in charge for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in discomfort, and a reduction when they recovered.
In spite of such progress, identification remains slow. Jamie Charteris's symptoms began in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being inflated behind my left eye”. Doctors thought he had a sinus issue; he had multiple operations before eventually being correctly identified in 2014, after a physician looked up his symptoms.
Neurologists say wait times in diagnosis and managing occur because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're tired and low, but not in severe pain,” a doctor says. He works by eliminating other primary headache conditions, such as migraine, before confirming cluster headaches. A thorough history is essential: on which part of the head do signs occur? For how much time? What time of year? Are there precipitating factors, such as alcohol? Specific characteristics such as tearing, drooping eyelids and stuffy nose help confirm cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be sent to dedicated clinics. But many first go to A&E or are given inadequate treatments.
Dorothy Chapman, in her late seventies, has experienced the condition for most of her life, although she hasn't had an attack since recent years. When she was in her 20s, she had her teeth extracted because dental professionals misunderstood her symptoms. She thinks dentists still need much more education. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was she who replied. I remember calling a helpline during an bout in 2021; a reassuring volunteer guided them through oxygen therapy and drugs until the attack eased.
Official guidelines on management recommend that patients are offered high-dose oxygen therapy and/or a specific drug delivered by nasal spray. No oral painkillers or opioids should be used. Prophylactic choices include verapamil, which reportedly soothes the attacks of some people.
But leading specialists argue the official guidelines need updating to reflect a more defined clinical pathway and help general practitioners avoid incorrect prescriptions. For episodic patients, timing is critical: “The duration of the cycle determines the approach.” Short bouts with infrequent attacks are handled with abortive treatment alone. Longer or more intense periods require preventives such as certain drugs, sometimes combined with corticosteroids. A significant number of patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a bout – an injection into the area of the head where the discomfort is that reduces nerve activity.
The official guidelines need updating to reflect a